2020 was indeed, the longest year
of my entire life. As I was sitting for the required 15-minute waiting period
after I received my first dose of the COVID-19 vaccine, I was so overcome with
emotion. I have isolated myself for over a year now, rarely gone out, only when
I needed to, I have not auditioned in over a year, attended a live theatrical
event or gone out to the movies either. I have had my groceries and other
necessities delivered. All of this because I am over fifty, overweight, and
have high blood pressure and am pre-diabetic. I get cabin fever very easily,
and suffice it to say, this past year has been at times a living nightmare. But
thanks to wonderful friends and family, I have made it through and when I was
sitting there in the old Wal-Mart in American Fork building, for just a moment,
it all felt surreal. It felt like I was awakening from a dream. I can finally
see light at the end of the tunnel. I have lost 20 pounds, in a healthy way, my
pre-diabetes is under control and I no longer must be on medicine for it, and
my blood pressure is returning to normal levels. I feel better than I have in
years. I have had moments of overwhelming anxiety, dark depression, and I felt
as if I would never come out of this alive at times. I was so scared of getting
this virus before I could get vaccinated. But now, I can truly see that light
at the end of the tunnel. We still have a long way to go, but I feel hopeful
for the first time. I finally am confident we can beat this thing with patience
and caring for one another enough to stay diligent with social distancing, mask
wearing and good hygiene until we can see that downturn in cases, hospitalizations,
and deaths due to this horrible pandemic. I miss performing so badly! I miss
being around like-minded artists, and the wonderful spirit they bring to my
life and countless others every night. I miss the collaborative spirit as well!
I have made some new friends online, strengthened existing friendships, and
learn to appreciate more, those wonderful things and people I must be grateful
for! I wish all of you out there the same things. I wish you love, joy, and
peace in your own lives! Together, we can all beat this thing! What a glorious
day that will be indeed!
Much love, Jason 💓
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